Xmas is coming!! And i love xmas!!! Love the festive mood.. Hee.. Gonna spend my first xmas wif Darling tis year!! Hee.. Already have in mind wat to get for Darling.. Haha.. poor Darling.. Still dunno wat to get for me..

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As we were clearing doubts, Darling had tis msg, "If i can, I onli wan make u feel xingfu, Other gurls i dun bother!!" =) Yes.. And i believe onli Darling can make me feel xingfu.. Cox at diff phase of life, the diff ppl u meet, will have diff kind of feelings and commitment.. Rite nw at tis phase, I wan to have a future wif Darling.. Though till nw, i had nvr say "I love u" to Darling.. But i believe, Darling can feel hw i feels towards him.. Is nt abt saying.. Wat's the point of saying if u dun mean it or treat it so shallow?? I seriously dunno abt LOVE as i dun believe.. Or even sacrificial Love.. I jux knw.. I like Darling and have strong feelings towards him.. Each day, it jux grow deeper and the feeling of afraid to lose him gets stronger too.. As the day goes, the more i get paranoid.. Haha.. tat izit reali true tat Darling solely belong to me?? Tat he is reali so nice and swt?? *though sumtimes he gt bad temper*.. Darling is a straightforward person.. He dosent knw hw to assure a gurl.. But through his actions and words, i feel safe being wif him.. I jux cannot imagine one day Darling is nt mine anymore..

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Sumtimes, i will jux ignore my negative tots and enjoy my time wif Darling.. But.. i am someone who tinks alot, far and mostly negative tots.. Cox jux to prepare myself if i fall.. I am a veri contracdicting gurl.. And tat's the tough part for Darling.. Having to endure my "occasional" moodswing.. *辛苦你了Darling*..

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Darling.. Baby misses u and like u alot!!!! Dun disappoint me.. U belong solely to me!! =)